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Born A Burden
04:52
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Where you'll find me
Is a home I call this mess
Telling stories of a substance that once gave my chest
Is a home I call this mess
Telling stories of a substance that once gave my chest
I hope you drown in your bottle I hope your drugs leave you empty
You took my life when you refused to change
A bridge once burned can never be the same
Caught in a perpetual state of desperation
You told me to never raise my fists to the ones I love
Hypocrite hypocrite
I hate the hand I've been dealt
I never asked for this
I hate the blood flowing through my veins
You'll always be haunting me
I've run as far as I can
Just to stay safe
I tried so hard to be the son you wanted
Where did I go wrong
If you don't want to be here
I'm torn to think I do
Don't ever say that I don't deserve this world you brought me into
I'll never be good enough for the love that you withheld
You were supposed to love me you were supposed to care
If you don't want to be here
Then leave me with the truth
Don't ever say that it's worth the hurt that you never even knew
I'll never be good enough for the love that you withheld
You were supposed to love me you were supposed to care
How am I supposed to love myself
I've seen sickness I've seen health
Either way it's gone to hell
Damaged boy replaced by addiction
An outcast looking in on what I lost
Abused as if it was nothing
A better life in my mind
I know I break everything I touch
Like father like son
If you don't want to be here
I'm torn to think I do
Don't ever say that I don't deserve this world you brought me into
I'll never be good enough for the love that you withheld
You were supposed to love me you were supposed to care
If you don't want to be here
Then leave me with the truth
Don't ever say that it's worth the hurt that you never even knew
I'll never be good enough for the love that you withheld
You were supposed to love me you were supposed to care
You broke my family, I live with the blame
Would you have loved me more if I was just like you
A bastard a fiend
You're a god damn disgrace
Born a burden and I have a cemetery mindset
I'd do anything to go back and make you proud
I'd do anything for the family I once had
I'm sorry I'm not good enough
I'm sorry
I'm sorry I'm not good enough
I'm sorry
I'd do anything to go back and make you proud
I'd do anything for the family I once had
I'm sorry I messed up
I'm sorry
I'm sorry I messed up
I'm sorry
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Am I really so alone
Or is my mind playing tricks on me
Is it all just in my head or can you see it too
Depressed and anxious scared to sleeplessness
I can see the disappointment in my own reflection
I'll force a smile as I wrestle with thoughts of dying
Just to keep you satisfied
Just to keep you calm
I'll bite my tongue to stifle my screams until I taste the blood
I'm losing faith in a better tomorrow
If you said my life would end today I would finally smile
I tried to save my elf
I was in too far deep
I tried to hide my screams
End of the rope is in my reach
I tried to save myself
But I failed to calm my mind
I couldn't deal with the mental strain
I'd give my life to end this pain
So stuck in seclusion
I pushed everyone away
My insecurities my only company
I lost my hope when I lost my sense of worth
I found solace in self destruction
I'll let my soul burn
I tried to save myself
I was in too far deep
I tried to hide my screams
End of the rope is in my reach
I tried to save myself
But I failed to calm my mind
I couldn't deal with the mental strain
I'd give my life to end this pain
I only have myself to blame
I lie awake at night
Praying to fade away
No one will ever love me
I can't face the world on my own
I'm wilting away day by day watch me decay
I'll die alone, I'll die alone
I only have myself to blame
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3. |
Scarecrow
03:17
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I hate myself
I hate that I'm a slave to my sins
God only knows
the guilt that's within
Compromised between the lies that I've told
Coincide with the things I with hold
I hate myself and the beat of my heart
My hands are calloused and torn apart
From tying nooses there's no excuses
Always been a letdown
I can't hide my demons
Everyone can see them
They're pulling me down
Muting my mouth
I must hide my demons
Where no one can see them
They're driving me insane
I need a grave of my own
These chains were there from the start
These chains keep holding down my heart
These chains were there from the start
These chains are what tear us apart
I am the scum that I hate
All of my misguided attempts at peace
Start an unintentional war
Im the architect of my destruction
Sabotaging myself at every turn and I've walked on eggshells for far too long I can't remember the sound of my voice
It numbs me sinking to the bottom of this bottle
I cant look my best friends in the eyes
I just wanted to be happy
I wanted to be free
The more I push the colder I get
It's like a tidal wave crashes over me
I can't hide my demons
Every one can see them
They're pulling me down
Muting my mouth
I must hide my demons
Where no one can see them
They're driving me insane
I put this scare crow up to push them away
There's a man in my head he says he wants me dead
Let him have my heart
Rip it out rip it out
I fight too hard to always end up the same
I'm a broken man forget my name
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4. |
Moving Forward
04:03
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In a moment let my fears get the best of me
I am a victim of my own pessimism
I pray to a God that doesn't listen
Please don't let anyone else feel this way
My heart is breaking from the weight of the world
Why won't anyone save me
Part of me died in that broken home
And it's taken me years to learn that
I can't go back
I have to move on
I have to know that this pain will stop
What
I waited and I waited
But nothing changed
I waited and I waited
It all stayed the same
Liar liar you said I'd be okay
Liar liar I'm as sick as can be
Part of me died in that broken home
And it's taken me years to learn that
I can't go back
I have to move on
I have to know that this pain will stop
Part of me died in that broken home
And it's taken me years to learn that
I can't go back
I have to move on
I have to know that this pain will stop
I've found the most painful feeling is slipping back and relapsing again
Sinking back into old habits and feeling it all
The guilt I'm burdened with will never leave me
It never leaves me
I'm a slave to these suicidal thoughts in my head
Ending it all before my time
I can't die like this
There's too much left to see
My friends and family are counting on me
Fighting these thoughts everyday
I have to grow stronger
I have to grow stronger than this
Finding the courage to stay
I won't end this life in suicide
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