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I Only Have Myself To Blame

from Cemetery Mindset by Home Seeker

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​Am I really so alone
Or is my mind playing tricks on me
Is it all just in my head or can you see it too
Depressed and anxious scared to sleeplessness
I can see the disappointment in my own reflection

I'll force a smile as I wrestle with thoughts of dying
Just to keep you satisfied
Just to keep you calm
I'll bite my tongue to stifle my screams until I taste the blood
I'm losing faith in a better tomorrow
If you said my life would end today I would finally smile

I tried to save my elf
I was in too far deep
I tried to hide my screams
End of the rope is in my reach

I tried to save myself
But I failed to calm my mind
I couldn't deal with the mental strain
I'd give my life to end this pain

So stuck in seclusion
I pushed everyone away
My insecurities my only company
I lost my hope when I lost my sense of worth
I found solace in self destruction
I'll let my soul burn

I tried to save myself
I was in too far deep
I tried to hide my screams
End of the rope is in my reach

I tried to save myself
But I failed to calm my mind
I couldn't deal with the mental strain
I'd give my life to end this pain

I only have myself to blame
I lie awake at night
Praying to fade away
No one will ever love me
I can't face the world on my own
I'm wilting away day by day watch me decay
I'll die alone, I'll die alone
I only have myself to blame

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from Cemetery Mindset, released June 30, 2017

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